I am writing this from home and not from my laptop.
Even though Mom was stable yesterday during my visit I was still a little disappointed. She wasn't as responsive as she was the past two days. I have gotten used to her slowly responding to my voice even though she won't or can't say anything. Sunday she wasn't as well. As I wrote yesterday though her vitals were normal.
Whike I was there I checked with the nurse on Mom's blood pressure and temperature, which were low. Mom is getting fluid so I inquired about the output. That was normal. I readjusted her bed to have her head raised. Today I will double check her I.V. port to make sure it is changed according to schedule and the oxygen assistance to see if it isn't too dry. I had the television adjusted because there was no volume. Calvary is doing a great job, but I just wanted to make sure she was really comfortable.
The staff at Calvary is friendly, polite, attentive and very professional so far. I have not been disappointed by them or by Einstein.
I want to see Mom today but I felt tired when I got home last night. I may give myself a break today. I have some personal business I need to take care of.
Emotionally, this is slowly taking a toll. I get no thrill watching my mother like this. There are so many mixed emotions that I am feeling. On one hand this is clearly my mother, the lady who gave birth to me. On the other hand, in a lot of ways Mom "left" years ago. Her smile is still there as well as some of her ways. I don't want to see her go, but I don't want to see her like this and that makes me feel like I am ready to see her go and not suffer. No one defined emotion.
Even though Mom was stable yesterday during my visit I was still a little disappointed. She wasn't as responsive as she was the past two days. I have gotten used to her slowly responding to my voice even though she won't or can't say anything. Sunday she wasn't as well. As I wrote yesterday though her vitals were normal.
Whike I was there I checked with the nurse on Mom's blood pressure and temperature, which were low. Mom is getting fluid so I inquired about the output. That was normal. I readjusted her bed to have her head raised. Today I will double check her I.V. port to make sure it is changed according to schedule and the oxygen assistance to see if it isn't too dry. I had the television adjusted because there was no volume. Calvary is doing a great job, but I just wanted to make sure she was really comfortable.
The staff at Calvary is friendly, polite, attentive and very professional so far. I have not been disappointed by them or by Einstein.
I want to see Mom today but I felt tired when I got home last night. I may give myself a break today. I have some personal business I need to take care of.
Emotionally, this is slowly taking a toll. I get no thrill watching my mother like this. There are so many mixed emotions that I am feeling. On one hand this is clearly my mother, the lady who gave birth to me. On the other hand, in a lot of ways Mom "left" years ago. Her smile is still there as well as some of her ways. I don't want to see her go, but I don't want to see her like this and that makes me feel like I am ready to see her go and not suffer. No one defined emotion.
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