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Monday, January 28, 2019

1/28 The day before the funeral

Been busy and haven't posted any updates since Mom passed away.

I have been handling this well.  I am sad, but not overwhelmed.  I am not feeling any extraordinary grief.  I miss my mother but I am ready to move on.  As I said in earlier entries there are no words to describe my emotions right now. There are things I guess I am supposed to feel that I am not.  Similarly, there are things I feel that don't seem right but here they are.

Because this is my mother I guess I am supposed to be overwhelmed with grief and sorrow.  I actually feel both sadness and relief.  I no longer have to worry about the phone ringing or being told that she is sick.  I no longer have to see her in a lesser capacity than I am used to seeing her.

Believe it or not I am anxious to move on to the next phase of my life.  I look forward to taking a few weekend trips and getting my apartment together.

The hard part comes tomorrow.

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